I find it hard to see myself as attractive. I study myself in the mirror and find flaw after flaw after flaw. I end up walking away feeling ugly and guilty from keeping my husband away from far more beautiful women. I don’t see me the way he sees me. I wonder how he can look at me with a smile, kiss me, and say “I missed you” after I work all day. I want to love how he sees me and not have a negative or suspicious mind to his endearment.

I doubt that I will be able to wake up tomorrow morning and be 100% happy with my appearance, but I am going to wake up and be content. I will no longer say “I wish I was…” or “If only I wasn’t”. I may not be as tall, as skinny, as tan or as beautiful as I want at the moment, but moments are fleeting. I am slowly changing to be a healthier me. I am happy knowing I will be healthy; and resolving to be happy will make me look at life in general more beautifully.